Tina Rowley

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you. say it!


So, I'm still breastfeeding Finn. And I used to use these great Danish wool breast pads but I don't know where they went so I've been using tissues or paper towels because that's the kind of guy I'm. (That's half of a Will Rogers rhyme which I love. I'm biding my time 'cause that's the kind of guy I'm.) And so recently I was using some folded-up Kleenex for a breast pad - and this was in the dark, putting Finn down for his night's sleep --

Look, this might be a little bit...well, gross is too strong a word, but unsavory in some way. Mildly icky. You're free to go if you want. I won't know. You can go see if they're having a sale at Macy's online or something. It's okay.

If you are still here, don't get mad at me if you feel ultimately that you would rather have been shopping at Nordstrom or whatever. Only you know your ick quotient, and where it falls.

So it was dark, and there was the folded-up Kleenex preventing leakage on one side while Finn nursed on the other. And then it was time to switch sides and I took the tissue away and Finn went to nurse but then he wouldn't do it. He kept popping off and saying "No." And eventually I figured out that there was a little wet bit of tissue that had stuck to my boob from the leakage LOOK I TOLD YOU THIS WAS A LITTLE ICKY DON'T COMPLAIN NOW and Finn understandably didn't want to have it go in his mouth. I removed it and made a big deal of showing him that the little bit of tissue wasn't there anymore and he was free to go about his business and everything was okay. I assured him that I understood that it must have been weird, and he agreed. "That was weird," he said.

But this Kleenex business has haunted him. And now when he goes nurse, he must always affirm, "There's no Kleenex there" before he begins. He says it before each boob. "There's no Kleenex there on Mommy's boob." Yes, there's no Kleenex, I say. That will never happen again. I pledge to you. Never again.

This morning he took it to a new level. Before he nursed he said it again as usual, "There's no Kleenex on Mommy's boob." I said, "That's right." And then he said, "Mommy. SAY IT." I obediently repeated, "There's no Kleenex on Mommy's boob." Then he pointed to Dave and said, "Daddy. SAY IT," and Dave had to say, "There's no Kleenex on Mommy's boob." And only then did Finn take the proceedings forward.

I wonder how long this will last. And a quick question: does anyone else call them "Kleenexes" instead of "tissues" normally? I have to make myself use the word "tissue". I have been deeply branded by the Kleenex people. Congratulations to you, Johnson and Johnson.